Goddaughters First day!


She is off to school. I love her and I am so proud.


Intolerable pain!

Ugh my f#&*?n wisdom teeth will not stop penetrating my gums and they are a devastating pain. I want to cry every min of everyday. I am crying now. Ugh oragel can suck it. I ate a whole damn tube of ice cream just so the pain would cease. Yikes school will be no bueno tomorrow and I am starting to think its not going away. Ugh.

Running out of patience and out of time!

Im tired. More like and sick and tired. I feel like im always the one putting forth the effort in our relationship and Andrew puts forth all the anger. Oh my gosh and i am so sick and tired of My BFF complaining about her f@$#^n relationship. She doesn’t realize it but she has it really good. She has a boyfriend who loves her. They fight but every couple fights. She has a place of her own and doesn’t have to answer to anyone her grandmother pays her rent. Her father pays all of her other bills and she complains because her boyfriend wants to spend a little time with his friends. Im tired of it and really upset like i said before and it may seem like im complaining about my life but i am a full time student with no job living with my boyfriend brother little cousin mom and dad. We all maybe make 50,000 a year together! Im tired.I want a place of my own and i sure as hell don’t mind paying for it. Ugh. I just have to sit and listen. I have to be a good friend. I have to endure. I don’t have many girlfriends. or friends in general. All of my friends are guys and they are not even close! I want to scream!

Moving, Blogs, and Jobs!!!

So I had a Video blog about 3 years ago and i was very devoted to it. Nobody watched it but i didn’t care. I loved it. I’m here now to start a new blog. I have been through a lot in the last three years. I want another chance and a place where i can express myself with out my boyfriend sneaking around my room looking for a journal so he can know what I am thinking.I dont care if he reads i But im not going to tell him i have it.Iv been thinking lately that we need to get the hell out of this house. If you read the about me section. I am 22 years old living in a household of 6 with my boyfriend, my father and mother, my brother and lil cousin. Im tired of trying to be quite when having sex or fighting for the bathroom or washing machine. Im tired of not being able to smoke whenever i want because my parents are around and dont approve. Im really tired of not having a place to call my own and HOME. Im ready for us to move. My boyfirend and I want to move out together. but i have to find a job first. UGH! Help!!!